I love this little piece of internet that I call my own. Do I write regularly? No. Do I have a large readership? Unless you count family members who have subscribed to my blog (Hi, Mom!), no. Do I have sponsorships and an expensive design/layout? No.
But dang it, it's all mine and, if nothing else, it's authentic. It's my safe place to electronically scribble my thoughts, aspirations, fears, and truth. A place to drone on about the struggles and triumphs of motherhood, marriage, travel, and everything in between. What more could I need?
Speaking of travel, it's all I can think about! I've fantasized about seeing the world since I was in kindergarten (cliche, I know, but true). I have to believe that if God put this passion in me and it has stayed constant throughout my entire life, it serves a purpose, right?
Kyle's asked me before, "If you could live anywhere for the rest of your life, where would it be?" Honestly, I can't answer. I want to immerse myself in the culture of so many different places. I want to try the food, befriend the locals, meander the streets, and learn the languages of dozens of locales. I want to feel "home" in places that look nothing like my childhood town. Perhaps it's just a lofty dream, and one day I'll look back at this time and laugh about how I was still so naive and optimistic, but for now, it's my dream and I'm sticking to it.
We all have goals for our lives, each different, special and unique. They are legitimate goals that we truly want to accomplish, but we aren't. Why?
It's simple, really, and holds no prejudices: We are distracted.
We are distracted, not only because of our day to day responsibilities but because we are constantly tuned into the less important stuff, like social media and television. They provide momentary entertainment, but the unfortunate reality is they are a complete and utter waste of time. Believe me, I'm not on any high horse; I absolutely struggle with giving my time to things that don't matter, too.
The moments where I could be budgeting for my next adventure, I spend mindlessly scrolling through my Instagram feed. I'm not proud of it, but it is the reality for me and so many others.
So, here is my official declaration: I will stop wasting so much time on things that give my life literally zero value. I will write. I will travel. I will laugh and play with my family. I refuse to be the person who, in their old age, wishes they had done things differently. With discipline, intentionality, and mindfulness, change is possible, and it can start today.
